Author: kg4vma

Normally, you might try to gloss over a difficult interaction or an unpleasant feeling. Now, however, you seem to be more comfortable digging into your own emotional world because you can feel the creative juices flowing. Keep in mind that you cannot rush this journey; the timing will unfold according to a plan greater than yours.

Well, I’ve gotten the all clear to share that long commentary of mine…

First, a little background…

The long comment I wrote was in response to a short quip that Jess’ mother-in-law posted on a blog entry. Jess made public announcement of the dissolution of her marraige. The in-laws aren’t happy. But from my experience with them, I don’t believe they were ever happy to begin with. For that matter when are anybody’s in-laws happy? But that’s another story.

Anyway, the high-priestess did her usual thing of snapping off with a verse, from James.

James 4:17 “Therefore to him that knoweth to do good, and doeth it not, to him it is sin.”

Well, that set my blood boiling. I have heard this woman quote scripture to her advantage several times. (I used to work for her, at the local RadioShack – that’s how I met Jess). This woman is religous to a fault, and somehow always finds a way of justifying her means with the Lord’s word. Well, I had enough.

So, I posted this in response:

Ah, The Letter of James…

Let’s read some more, shall we…

James 1:20 “for the anger of man does not work the righteousness of God.”

I believe that your response to Jess’ post was in a form of anger, and then you follow with claim that you are “a servant of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.”

James 1:22-25 “But be doers of the word, and not hearers only, deceiving yourselves. For if any one is a hearer of the word and not a doer, he is like a man who observes his natural face in a mirror; for he observes himself and goes away and at once forgets what he was like. But he who looks into the perfect law, the law of liberty, and perseveres, being no hearer that forgets but a doer that acts, he shall be blessed in his doing.”

I find, and have found it to be obvious that you are a hearer of the word, but are you truly a doer? Do you honestly exercise the word, or do you merely listen, and use it for your benefit?

James 1:26 “If any one thinks he is religious, and does not bridle his tongue but deceives his heart, this man’s religion is vain.”

Spouting off verse, and doing so while believing you are high in faith, and not acting upon the words you speak is self-righteous.

James 4:16 (just one verse prior to yours) “As it is, you boast in your arrogance. All such boasting is evil.”

Funny how you used the verse following that to try and belittle a person, then praise yourself for being Christian. Quite arrogant.

James 5:15 “and the prayer of faith will save the sick man, and the Lord will raise him up; and if he has committed sins, he will be forgiven.”

A verse which is more appropriate than any to quote – for it applies to any situatation. Should one be failing, in any aspect, they can pray for help & forgiveness, and if these prayers are true of heart, then they shall be helped, and their sins forgiven. You chastise Jess for being a “fighter”. You may not know it, but the strength that Jess has in being a fighter may actually be strength being given to her by the Lord. Jess may vary well have been praying for help, to find a way out, to be herself again and not a prize or possession. Whether this is the case or nor not is of no matter, and since you and your family feel ill, Bryan included, this verse should be in your minds. Pray, and things will get better.

As I conclude this response, I would like to quote one more verse, from a different book. One of my favorite writers, Paul, had said in Galatians 5:25-26 “If we live by the Spirit, let us also walk by the Spirit. Let us have no self-conceit, no provoking of one another, no envy of one another.”

I leave you with this, so that you may think on the words, regarding provocation. Your response to Jess’ post was to provoke her in some means. Had it not been with intent to provoke, would you have made comment at all? And, yes, before you think it, I too, am now as guilty as you, for it is very obvious that this commentary of mine was left with the intent to provoke you. I will however take the time now to explain that my intent is not to provoke argument, but to provoke and encite thought, and perhaps help you learn to judge yourself at the same level that you judge others around you – be they family, friends, customers of your business, or employees (present and past).

May Christ be with ALL of us, and have mercy on ALL our souls.

It seems to be getting rave reviews, as well. Well, at least from the three people that I know read it.

So, since Jess has so graciously allowed me the opportunity to share this with you, I can now break this comment down even further, and enter into a chapter of my life that I haven’t shared with you. My life at RadioShack.

In February of 2001, I went to work at C&S Electronics. C&S was owned by a dimwitted middle aged-man who lived out of town, and was run by the aforementioned Jesus-freak. The store was an odd place to work. There was hardly any traffic, and hardly any merchandise. Not a soul knew a thing about consumer electronics. Customer relations we terrible. No-one wanted to shop there. The only reason I had even went to work there was because a friend had recommended me.

Well, I went to work, doing practically nothing. I’d stand behind the counter and ring up phone cards, and talk to Jess. We’d watch movies and hang out outside. Yes, I said watch movies. And I don’t mean just glancing at the TV every-so-often, I mean we pulled out chairs, and sat in front of the TV, and actively sit and watch a movie. On several occasions we had been able to finish an entire movie without having one customer walk through the door. That’s how terrible business had been.

Eventually, I got tired of this, and started putting forth my own initiative to make the store better. I started mving merchandise around. I started changing the layout of the store. Customers noticed – and even though we weren’t getting nay more merchandise in, people fell to believe the illusion that we actually had new products. Sales started to increase.

Well, Jess moved away with her hubby, and we needed more help. I recommended a friend. He came in, and was hired. The two of us started doing what I had been doing before. We started making suggestions of new product. slowly, the new product would come in, and we would find ways to showcase it. After time, business started to grow, and the need for yet another employee came. Two were hired, only one survived. Thankfully he was the one who survived.

The three of us continued to change things up. We started excercising our interest and love in consumer electronics, and found our own separate niches, so that we could better serve the consumer.

Then I got bolder. I started playing with the POS/ICS. I started altering our ordering system, so that other items would get slipped into our weekly shipments. The items sold. We ordered more. I started altering the recommended on hand numbers, so that we could have more parts in stock, for I had discovered a trend in what quantities of a certain piece sold. I did all of this to keep our customers from going to the store in Georgetown or the store in Paris – something which happened all too regular when I first came to work at C&S.

I started making more suggestions to the manager (the Jesus-freak), as to how we should handle the business. My words fell on deaf ears.

Eventually she ended up buying the business off the dimwitted old man. The business grew even more. All thanks to me and the other two gents. But don’t even try to mention that to her – she’ll deny every word of it.

One day, I left. I went to another job that paid better. Eventually I left that job, for the distance of travel and the long hours were making me physically ill. I came back to the store. I worked there for about one more year, before I was let go.

I had continued to challenge the woman to do more with the business, and to not cheat as much as she had. Cheat! What? Yes. Ah, here’s an interesting story:

I do not remember the ex
ac
t timeline, but an incident had occurred where Jess’ father in law came in, under his wife’s advisement, and bought a camera under the name of his father. But this isn’t all, we set the date back on the comuter system, so that the purchase fell before a certain date. This had something to do with reporting the spending of finances. Then, the item was returned on the correct date. There was no money handling, or embezzlement, but there clearly wis a misreporting of an elderly man’s funds. Other cheats performed were the purchase of equipment or merchandise buy the business, and then the personal use of the family. When the usefulness of the item had been met, the item would be returned to the store and re-sold, or returned to the original vendor for some “defect”.

Ah, the biggest cheat – this involves the sale of cellular phones and airtime. When one purchases a “starter-kit” they have the right to all the contents, whether it is for new activation or replacement. Not so at this store. Should you walk in today, and purchase a phone, and tell them that it is to replace another, they shall remove the SIM card and booklet with the airtime pin, and charge you full price. The SIM and airtime are then re-sold. Hmm. Remember the woman’d quote from James, about knowing what’s good and not doing it?

This woman has amazed me. What gall she has.

There is much more that I could tell you of this woman, and the shady business, but I have grown tired of speaking of it, and wish to move on for the time being. Perhaps we shal revisit the topic another time.

Diana’s gotten Nivea into singing this song…

Name the song referenced in the subject and you earn 10 points.

My horoscope for today, as reported by Tarot.com, read:

“The possibilities may seem too varied to do just one thing. The dilemma now is to find balance between your most basic needs and your biggest dreams. You want it all, and it actually seems possible. But it probably won’t happen as you imagine it. You’ll need to pull back on your desires in order to stay on the path that has brought you this far.”

I just read this a few minutes ago, and find it to be strikingly close to what my mind has been wrapped up in throughout most of the day.

A few weeks ago I walked out at work. I just up and quit. I got tired of it. I wanted more. I wanted to be me.

I’ve been able to experience so much since then. I’ve been at home with the children. I’ve been performing household duties and tasks. I’ve been doing things that I enjoy. I’ve also been daydreaming of the life yet to come, or at least the life i wish shall come.

Well, I’ve been trying to figure out how to balance being a fprovider, a caregiver and my own self. I have yet to figure out how these three things are possible to do at one time.  I cannot fulfill my dreams if I do not complete a higher education. I cannot provide for my family if I don’t have a job. I cannot have a job and go to school at the same time, or if I do, I cannot be an effective father. I cannot be an effective father if I don’t provide for my children. I cannot provide for my children if I don’t have a job. I cannot have a good job, which will provide my children with more opportunities, unless I go to school and further my education. I cannot…..

See, ths is what I have been faced with. This is what plagues me. Oh, God, I want so bad to do what’s right for me and mine, but I don’t know the way.

Speaking of the way, whatever happened to Fastball?

“where were they going, without ever knowing the way?”

Sorry.

So, tomorrow, I’m registering for classes, and praying that we can survive on what Diana is making at her job. This is going to be really difficult, considering she is making significantly less than what I earned at Concept. We’ve got so many bills. And I may have drove us to ruins due to my own unhappiness.

In other news…

I wrote an interesting commentary earlier today, which was to show someone how much of an ass they truly are. I am quite proud of my work. I had forgotten how passionate I truly am. The writing helped me to see a part of myself which had been covered up for a few years – covered up by the day to day life that had been working at Concept.

Now, it’s getting late, and I am starting to ramble and lose my concentration.

I believe that it is time to bed-down for the night…

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The song was “A Day In The Life” by The Beatles.
Here’s your ten points:

points points points points points points points points points points

Thank you for playing…

So, I just wrote one long-ass response to a comment left on a friend’s blog. Um yes, it was very freaking long. And I was quoting scripture.

Ah, so now you get the title of this entry! Lamentations, Jeremiah, HAHAHA… oh, you don’t get it? Well, poop.

Anyway, I’d like to link it or just re-post it here, but feel that I should ask permission from the friend if I can air their dirty laundry here. Whoa – wait a minute! I’m being respectful of someone else’s business! Since when? Hey, I’ve learned a lot. Don’t you remember the time I really pissed off Diana and Shandra? I even had Maria mad at me, and we had never even spoken before, even though we live a stone’s throw away.

Maybe that’s why I don’t want to risk hurting anyone else – i don’t wanna get stoned.

Oh, I am exhausted…
I drove the car across town and dropped it off for repair, and then walked back home, carrying Taron on my shoulders. I don’t know whether to say it was fun, or not…
I think I’ll nap for a bit…

So, I’m sitting here, in front of the computer, with not much to do…
Some kids from across the street were pelting the window with clods of dirt. They’ve gotten gutsier now, and are running up to the door, and are banging on it…
I wonder why they haven’t given up yet…
I guess that they’re trying to get a reaction of some sort. Little do they know that I try to just ignore irritations and problems. Besides – they’re just kids, and I have no earthly clue as to who their parents are, nor do I care. I try not to socialize with any of the neighbors. Hell, I think that today I had the longest exchange of words with the next-door neighbor. I got my mail, just as he, and he said something like, “Hey, I think I’ve got something of yours,” and I responded with an, “Alright,” as he handed it to me.
Yeah, I really don’t socialize. Haven’t found anyone that I would really want to socialize with…
Diana should be getting off of work soon. I wonder what I should fix for dinner. I hope she calls before she leaves.
The kids are playing upstairs. Speaking of, it sounds like I should go up there – I hear Niv protesting something…