So, I was going to write some more nonsense this morning, but it seems like the “server” is having issues, and I really don’t want to go upstairs and restart the damned thing. Instead, I guess I’ll just draft and email and then do a copy paste later this evening, if I remember. Sure, there’s a million other ways that I could do this, but for some reason just doing a simple gmail draft seemed the easiest and laziest way to go about it at the time.

So, there’s been a nice uptick in my writing lately. Yay? I mean, I like that I’m finally making myself sit down and do this. I guess part of me still wishes that it could have just slightly different motivation. But, I dunno, regardless, it’s working. An annoyance will probably end up being that I am using a couple different programs/apps/whatever to do so, and then I will be merging it all back into my self-hosted WP installation.
And a random thought–I still think about how I’d kinda like to really take things back to the ways I used to do things, with an LJ installation. I’m pretty sure I had read somewhere that there is either a LiveJournal clone or the original source that can be run self-hosted. I kinda miss the way livejournal operated.
The little quick random bits that I’ve been writing in DIarium are somewhat helpful. Well, that’s not quite what I was thinking–those words are totally out of order and the written thought is not formed right. Try again. Diarium has been somewhat helpful in allowing me to capture random, quick thoughts. There, that’s better. Anyway, I’ve been using Diarium a decent amount, and have to say that I wish I had the ability to take full advantage of it. Like, it would be nice if I had a chromebook or a windows machine that could run the app. My preferred notebook/laptop is currently a linux machine and doesn’t have the storage to allow me to run an android emulator or anything. Funnily, this notebook used to be a chromebook. I just decided that with the limitations it had I would be better off converting it to linux rather than running the chromeOS linux container–I had tried to do that and it wasn’t working out so well for the stupid use cases I wanted.
Well, now the time has come for me to try and figure out what quick random bits to jot down, as I noticed the clock is laughing and screaming at me that I only have thirty minutes left to spend on wasting time before work. *sigh* And that’s something that still bothers me–I could be using this time for other things, rather than opening my mind, heart and soul up.
I pulled the Sebring out and put my Durango in the barn yesterday. Neither one of those cars were too happy about it. I think I might actually go ahead with trying to fix the Sebring, rather than talking Ashlee into getting rid of it. There’s a stupid little sentimental attachment that we have to it. It would be awesome to keep the thing around and drive it again. I think the big thing it’s suffering from are damaged/worn rod bearings. From what I think I’ve gathered, I should be able to replace the bearings with the engine still mostly intact and mounted; I just need to first get some plastigage and find out what my tolerances are–see if there’s been enough wear to warrant larger bearings, or if we can still run on the original stock size. It just kind of sucks because that’s one of those “take something apart and wait before you continue” sorts of repairs, and I hate those. But, if it’s the bearings and only the bearings, we’re talking $100 or less to get our best gas saver back on the road. So, I guess it’d be worth it.
I still haven’t quite figured out the Durango’s issues. I think my next plan of attack is pulling the solenoid pack out of the transmission and seeing if it just needs a good cleaning. Honestly, I’m worried that there’s more than that going on. I’m afraid of burned clutches and the like, because she just doesn’t smell that great when I’ve gotten her to engage. I really like that truck–It has everything I want and need–but I think I might have to let it go. And, oddly enough, I think I’d prefer to kiss it goodbye if there was a choice that had to be made between it and the Sebring.
I really wish that I didn’t have to go to work today. But, I would only want that if I could still have tomorrow off, too. And it’s not laziness that is making me not want to go to work–it’s me thinking about all the things that I want or need to do here at home.
Well, it looks like the clock is once again telling me that I’ve run out of time.

I’m really kind of getting upset at myself and the world for there being a lack of time in my life for me to sit down and express all my thoughts and feelings on anything and everything going on in my life. I do desperately want to share what goes on in my head, but there just simply isn’t enough time. And it frustrates me, as I know that there had been time once, even when I had been employed full-time. I just can’t seem to rediscover how I managed to balance things.

I mean, okay, sure, some of my previous efforts where kind of automated, using various scripts and plugins, jerking posts from other sites where I shared quick blurbs and status updates like here’s what I liked on YouTube, here’s what song I just listened to, here’s and article I stumbled upon, here’s where I went today, etc. Sometimes, though, it was those stupid little simple things that I wanted to share, and sometimes it was those things that I shared that helped me to create a post a day or so later hen I actually had the time to sit down and write.

I kind of miss that version of the Internet that I had played with. All the inter-connectivity that was possible–and all of it free!

It kinda looks like I might’ve broken something in my connection between my self-hosted and the wp.com mirror. I have no idea what I did–and I don’t have the time this morning to try and fix it. I likely won’t have the time for a week or more, honestly. Not that it matters much, anyway.

Edit/Update: Just attempted to duplicate the last post that wasn’t getting sent, as this one did. The duplicated one–which I started fresh as a new entry–didn’t go through, again. The only “oddity” between the two–this and the other–is that the other includes attached media, whereas this is text only. Hmmm.

I wanted to write a bit. Now I’m not feeling it so much. I’m just like in this state of where–here, never-mind, here’s an image that maybe best describes my feelings, right now:

Yep. And I can’t write with my head stuck in that place.