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So, why am I trying? Really? Why am I trying to go to school? Will I really better myself? Will I really become something? Will I really be able to achieve the dreams that I once had? Will I really be able to be happy?
I sit here, and I wonder about these things, and I fear that nothing will happen That nothing will come of any of this. Tat I shall remain trapped. That I shall continue o be unhappy. That I will never feel the joys and aspirations that my heart so desires.
I think and wonder whether I should just give up this dream, and whether I should go crawling on my hands and knees, back to that factory.
Why did I leave?
What am I doing?
What’s wrong with me?

Well, I am in day four of the not-feeling-so-well thing. Damned stomach bug. Belches are less frequent, but still rank. I’m having a problem with flatulence, and it’s rather rank, too. BMs are less frequent, and are starting to turn to a normal state.
Taron’s still fine – he has yet to experience this bug. Niv’s entered day three. It’s not slowing her down any; it’s only making her bottom sore.
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I’m having some rather interesting dreams lately. Well, actually, the dreams began about two months ago, and are just becoming more frequent, and a little more detailed. I’m not complaining – I rather enjoy these dreams! I just believe I may need to read up a bit on Freudian theories…
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I think I’m going to email Laura, my ENG101 instructor, and ask her to better define the requirements of this last writing assignment. The paper is supposed to be “academic” in nature. My question is whether my research for the paper should be “empirical.” I had switched to a different topic, for I wasn’t having an easy time researching for the other two topics I had chosen. Now my problem is that I’m just having a difficult time finding direction for this topic. I have a decent amount of material, but I’m just not feeling the spirit necessary to write anything. I’m just not getting into it.
The topic I wish to write about would be a bit easier for me, however information available would be a bit more limited. Limitations would be primarily where information would be found. I could find a history of the topic, and then a decent amount in trade publications and even more in general interest publications; most of which would be opinionated articles written by pseudo-, self-proclaimed, and media authorities – though most of these authorities would be educated and trained in the field.
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I dunno.
My stomach hurts.

I’ve been thinking about toys. I know that, for the time being, our children’s toys are safe. None of them appear on any recall list (though we have one toy which was manufactured some time prior to the “affected” range). I still can’t help but wonder and worry.
I dug around through Taron’s toys, and the vast majority were manufactured in China. What makes me worry is that I cannot be certain whether any harmful chemicals/materials/contaminants are present. I have no real way of knowing. Some of the children’s toys are made by, or licensed through Mattel or a Mattel brand, while others are made by lessor if not unknown companies; and of these lesser or unknowns, how many could have been manufactured at a suspect facility, or a facility owned and operated by a suspect subcontractor?
These things bother me.
I am honestly contemplating tossing all toys that say China on them – regardless of whether they appear on a recall list or not. Yes, it’s a paranoid thing to do, but I just can’t be too sure. It’s my children that I’m thinking about…
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