J. Palmer

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## Wed 18 Jan 2023 03:52:25 PM EST

I had a quick little epiphany a few moments ago; part of my problem is that I have too many computers.

Thing is, that’s exactly how I want it. I wants all teh pee-cees.

…but, yeah, no, I relized that part of my problems are that I have so many things available to me at the moment–and yet, not a lot, really–and I have no real idea of what I want to do with all of them, and in what order I should attack things.

Years ago, when I was more limited, it was easier to sort out what I wanted to accomplish, and what my boundaries were. Now, I’m working with more resources, and have fewer boundaries–especially considering a lot of the little things I want to play with and explore aren’t that resource heavy.

…guess I really need to stop and organize my thoughts.

blah.

Thanks for reading;

–J

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# Untitled
## Sun 15 Jan 2023 06:48:35 PM EST

Just thought I’d pop in for a quick little post, since I’m wanting to try and take this seriously. I’ve got several ideas of things that I could try to write about, but I’m honestly not feeling the writing vibe at this moment–I’d rather toy around with a few more of my little pet projects instead. (The pet projects, oddly enough, are a few of the things I would like to write about when I’m actually feeling it)

I dunno. Until the writing bug bites me, I’ll think I’ll leave it at that for now.

Thanks for reading;

–J

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# I just realized that it’s Friday the 13th

…yep. Just came to that realization when I set to write this little post. Normally, I wouldn’t care about the date, but when trying to follow a dating scheme for writing a silly journal entry filename… blah. Anyway, lookout, Jason’s coming!

So, I’m back to tinkering around with gemini stuffs; not only that, but I think I figured out that my focus on it should just be my focus. No games, schemes, whatever B.S. I was tring to think of doing. I mean, sure, documenting a bunch of crap about things I’m playing around with is a good idea, but trying to figure out how to possibly make a buck with it or create a following instead of just letting it come naturally? That’s my problem. I try to overthink things and try to find a way to make things becaome greater than what they actually are or should be. This should just be about me having fun and tring to find ways of expressing myself to myself and for myself without a whole lot of outer influence–or outer influence that I’m trying to machine.

Any of that make sense? No?

Okay, so here’s the deal. I’d thought once upon a time that maybe I could get on the youtuber bandwagon or maybe even create some sort of blog where I could earn a little extra income. I mean, there’s all these other people out there doing it, and presenting me with hours of informational entertainment doing what they love–doing things I love!–and GETTING PAID for it! Hell, why can’t I do that sort of thing?

…well. I can’t. Or at least I shouldn’t. Not yet, anyway. I need to be me first. So, no trying to figure out how to brand and market myself. Let’s just go back to figuring out how to be myself.

So, as part of this journey, I’ve decided to bring a bit of my older (younger?) self with me for the ride, and have imported some old WordPress and LiveJournal entries (the old LJ stuff is buried within the WP stuff, as I imported those entries there.) Hell, there’s even some MySpace stuff tucked away in there somewhere. Point being, I’ve grabbed up about as much junk that I’ve written as I can and plan on diving into some of it, and welcome you to do the same–assuming that there is a “you” reading this somewhere. I also plan on actually making it a point to write more often. As you’ll notice in going through my archives of posts, I used to write quite a bit; sure most of it was nonsense, but it was something that I felt I needed to share with someone, if not just with myself.

I dunno, I feel as if I’m beginning to ramble as I really had no real thoughts as to what to write when I began to write any of this. <-- See, rambling. So, anyway, I think I'll leave it here for now. Thanks for stopping by; -J

# I was pretty hateful and ugly in my earlier adult years
Fri 13 Jan 2023 04:39:53 PM EST

…and I came to that conclusion after reviewing a few of my older posts. Wow. I won’t really take anything that I had said or done back–unless it is something I’ve already taken back, of course–but still… yikes.

Needless to say, I’ve already removed some of the more colorful and private posts from public view. For the most-part you would have to be in the know of my life at the time to understand them, anyway.

A point of self-reflection, I guess; and in that I think I’ve discovered that I have changed and grown slightly–primarily through the company I keep–and yet, I haven’t changed all that much. Honestly the latter strikes a bit of fear within me, as if I haven’t changed all that much, then I am still very capable of being the same person I had been–which is a hateful and ugly weakling.

Oh, well.

I’ll be moving on to try and do some more work on this journal or whatever you wanna call it.

–J