Tag: randomness

I just noticed a couple of things that are tad bit funny.
A few weeks ago, Diane had complained about how her daughter had become estranged. Her original text (as recovered from my local Google cache – I love Google Desktop!) is quoted below:

 Wednesday, August 01, 2007
   

Our Daughter Sarah!

Current mood: sad

I would like to write this blog to my youngest daughter, Sarah. I have no idea when she will ever read it, but I hope one day she will find it.

Sarah is our youngest daughter and in May graduated from Pensacola Christian College. She had to work so hard to graduate. Because of her dyslexia, she struggled the first year a lot. She never gave up and made it! We are so proud of her. We encouraged her and supported her through her entire 4 years.

During her second year at PCC, she made some friends that really helped her along to learn independence. She may never know how good a mother feels when she knows her children can live independently because a mother won’t always be able to be there.

Unfortunately whatever happened during that second year, Sarah began distancing herself from us. The more I tried to talk to her, the further she pushed away. Finally at the beginning of the fourth year the distance was so great, that the stress here at home reached it’s max. I told her that I loved her, but would no longer try to push for the relationship we lost somewhere, but that one day when she is ready, we are here waiting and ready. She misunderstood my emails which made things so much worse, that I also told her I would only email if I had to know something important for her banking.

Christmas 2006 she came home for a day to get some things, and we missed out on celebrations with her. After graduation, she still refused to come home even for just a week because she was to start a job at PCC a month later. Boy, that was a difficult blow. I am sure she will never realize how difficult it was for us until one day when she has her own family.

What makes this writing so difficult is that we at one time were such a close knit family. We always did things together, shared things together and at one time she adored her nieces and nephews.

Someone at church told me that it was the mother’s job to contact the child because at that age the child has too much pride. But what this person did not know was how many phone messages I made waiting for return calls that never happened. How many emails were sent and ignored.

God has given me the grace to wait as long as it takes and hopefully it is not 20 years. A wonderful friend of mine had to wait 23 years or so for her daughter to come back. She has been my strength when I get weak and begin to shed a few tears trying to be patient.

Writing my thoughts here is extremely difficult as I know my other children will read this, and they suffer too because they miss her happy cheerful funny ways. Sarah told me a yaer ago those days are gone, she is not that person any more. However, I know locked deep inside is the real Sarah, she just doesn’t know it yet.

I truly long for the day when I can write a blog here to say my Sarah “Buggy” has come back. I love her so much I am willing to wait as long as it takes, and I ask the Lord to give me the grace to wait. No one knows how long they have to live on this earth and I hope she and I have enough years to once again be a family!

I pray for you every single day Sarah, and many times it is several times a day! I do love you, and so do we all!

Mom

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The entry has been edited, apparently Sarah had heard, or something… anyway, everyone’s all lovey-dovey now – current version of that blog entry is linked here. I have also quoted it below (should it be edited once more):

 August 1, 2007 – Wednesday
   

Our Daughter Sarah!
Current mood: happy

Sarah is our youngest daughter and in May graduated from Pensacola Christian College. She had to work so hard to graduate. Because of her dyslexia, she struggled the first year a lot. She never gave up and made it! We are so proud of her. We encouraged her and supported her through her entire 4 years.

I pray for you every single day Sarah, and many times it is several times a day! I do love you, and so do we all! Believe this or not.

Thank you so much for your letter, we really were glad to hear from you and glad you found my space! We are proud to know that you were promoted in the art department of which you worked so hard to achieve.

Mom

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The editing of the blog bugs me. Why overwrite a true expression of emotion and concern? A supplemental blog would have worked. Or, perhaps revocation of public reading, followed by a replacement. Just odd.
Of course, this is not the first time that she has replaced an entry. On July 21, 2007 she had written:

 Saddening news

Current mood: disappointed

Well, I had not planned to write much on my daughter in law, Jessica, but it is time to let out some of the dissappointment in our family.

Bryan and Jessica have been married 6 1/2 years. There have been ups and downs as in every marriage where two people have to learn to live with each other and learn to do away with unselfishnesses.

Most of the years were good and fun times we spent with Jessica and Bryan and the kids. We went on trips together, we laughed and cried together. We prayed together and drew close as a family, or so it seemed.

Many things have transpired in the marriage this time since May, and none of them are good, in fact most are devastating blows. When deceitfulness comes out in a person it is alarming what a person can do.

I find it difficult to understand how or why a person would fake salvation for so long, but as she has said on her my space page, it was all fake. For that I am concerned how God will deal with someone who has put on a Christian front, then suddenly denounces that life. The things she has recently done make me realize she certainly is not under God’s control, but also not under her own control as she thinks she is. Only Satan can cause a person to go to the extent she has, in order to try to get her way.

Unfortunately for her, the law is the law and she will soon see that what she has done cannot be taken back or undone as it is now in the records that will probably scar her for life. For that I am very sad because I know that at this moment she cannot see what is happening. I am sad to lose a young lady who was so much a wonderful part of our family.

I am thankful for the wonderful times, those are the times I will remember sweetly and hope the pain of the present will fade and the memories will remain untarnished. I continue to pray for Jessica that God will reach down and bring her to her knees and draw her to Himself for salvation, for if that does not happen, the end of life is separation from God and family for eternity.

If anyone who reads this blog is a prayer warrior, please Pray for Jessica’s salvation. For true Salvation brings repentance and hopefully some measure of restoration.

Diane

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That entry no longer exists; it had been the second publicly viewable blog entry. Now, the second entry is one where she sings praises of David, her son-in-law.
But Diane’s rewrites aren’t the reason why I started to post this blog. My original intent was to mention that it had been to my knowledge that Diane and Sarah weren’t really on speaking terms, and that I had discovered that Sarah is listed as the Secretary of DiMark Electronics, the family business. I was going to say something smart-assed in regards to this, but have lost all interest now.