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quandary

So, I may have discovered something very startling… a trend… how our finances and moods correlate…
What’s scarier is that one trend I might have found is that when our expenses are at the lowest points, and our income is high, are the points where I have gotten Diana to calm down, and we have cut items… That also, if I am looking at the dates correctly, is when Diana starts liking me less…
This does prove that she is a materialistic person… Sure, she may not need physical pocessions, but she needs stuff…
I would really like to check this graph against all of my blog entries (past ones shall be difficult to locate) and see if I have written anything on our general temperaments at during those frames of time…
I did see one thing which I feel shows a correlation… During the time frame where she was feeling less loved and less appreciated, our income grew, as our expenses dropped… Obviously this is drastically changed when I left work to be with her… We spent a lot more, and had not a penny to our names… And oddly, she was happier…
Of course, when I think about it, it has been this way for quite some time, even back when we were starting out…
At any rate… Dates which I need to search are…
June – August 2005
December 2005
Feb – March 2006
May 2006
August 2006
Feb – May 2007
June-August 2005 – okay, there was some fighting, Diana wasn’t too happy. I cannot remember it being that bad… she was arguing about us not having things she wanted… like a cell phone, cable, and so on… then i got hired on full-time at concpet, and we got those things…. i remember that during this time frame, i was hoping that i’d get hired on so that i could either have money to give her, or money that i could use to run away… obviously i never ran away….
there is an increase in dining out during this time frame…
december 05 – there was increased spending – expected – holidays
feb-march 2006 – decrease in spending, odd considering a new baby was born… there was a tax deposit early feb, which accounts relative decrease in spending, but i do recall some more fighting here… diana had been threatening to leave again, if she didn’t get what she needed – note the increased cable bill… there must have been a little more fighting as well, note the appearance of liquor…
may 2006 – i cannot explain by looking at the financial statements… there is an increase in cell phone bill, and then auto repairs… i do not see why there is a lesser expense… but there is, despite an increase in dining out, and the aforementioned vehicle maintenance…
August 2005 – this is where diana and i point back to something happening, but neither of us can figure out what… we were at blows here… why, neither of us really know… we both claim that the one was not appreciating the other… it was shortly after this that i believed things were getting better, and diana claims that they weren’t… expenses increase due to van and approaching holiday season…
Feb – may 2007 – we all know this… during this time frame there was also a drop in expenses, due in part to diana’s short-lived employment… my income fluctuated a hell of a lot… so there was no gain there… i do see less purchases… i am not comprehending what exactly happened there financially… our balance was relatively low… but we were perfect on spending – until mid april, when you know what happened…
so, i dunno…
i need to look at the blogs… see if i can find more… maybe i can find a cycle to everything….

An Extended Definition of Borderline Personality Disorder: The Labyrinth

Here’s a writing I am turning in for class tonight:

 

An Extended Definition of Borderline Personality Disorder:

The Labyrinth

Jeremiah Hall Palmer

ENG101

Sullivan University

 

A room. A large room. Not just any room – an expansive room, filled with the absence of light. The room is familiar, and yet, there is something very unsettling about it. The room change, shifts, reconstructs itself. All the basic elements are there – walls, doors, ceilings, floors – everything familiar and known is present. The room changes. The doorway that had been only a few feet from you has now somehow gone ten feet away, and leads to somewhere else. The room changes. The labyrinth grows. You are lost in the maze of darkness, and everything that you should know about the room proves incorrect, yet at other instances all logic prevails, and a bit of light may be shed and you find your way.

 

While the analogy above may sound more like a partial synopsis of The Navidson Record (Danielewski, 2000), it’s purpose is to serve as a definition of Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) – and what the sufferers; meaning the person having the symptoms and diagnosis of the mental syndrome; as well as the persons within the life of the diagnosed experience.

 

According the American Psychological Association’s Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders fourth edition (DSM-IV), Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) as a condition where a person’s mentality and emotions vary from the norm by showing instability in overall behavior, self-image, identity, mood, relationships, and the classification of things in terms “black and white”, or “right or wrong.” These aspects are further outlined in the criteria listed in the DSM-IV, and are offered as a guideline for possible diagnosis, where a person suffering from BPD will show five of the nine listed symptoms. (APA, 2004)

 

Commonly, the BP has issues with interpersonal relationships. This causes tremendous troubles for both the BP and the non-BP. The BP may exhibit a lack of trust in the non-BP, and show violent or irregular changes in attitude toward the non-BP. Reasons for these trust and anger issues may vary, and typically will, for the issue lies deep within the BP’s previous life experiences. The BP may have been a victim of some sort of abuse, be it emotional, physical, or sexual (Wikipedia, 2007). These experiences then influence the attitude of the BP, and the feelings get applied toward the non-BP. This transgression is not done intentionally; meaning that the BP truly wishes to behave in this manner, however; the attitude is brought about as a defense mechanism. The BP has been put on edge – a high alert, and looks for any sign that they might be hurt once more.

 

The walls. The doors. The floors. Familiar elements of this room. But something is different, something changes, the room has gotten bigger. The doors are further away.

 

A BP can enter into a relationship not expecting anything more than what any other person may expect. Things may seem fine or normal. Then the BP will start looking for the signs (Harvard, June 2006). The non-BP may make the normal changes within their attitude as everyone is susceptible to doing. This simple change may scare the BP; therefore causing a sudden rift in their attitude, causing a change in the way they look at things, and in turn causing a change in how the non-BP sees their friend/partner.

 

When people enter into a relationship, they typically show all of their good points, and get comfortable with one another before letting their lesser points slide in. One may be dating a person for a few weeks, going out to dinners and movies, and show full proper manners, and then there will come that one night where someone breaks. While this example may be a bit stretched, it does show how one changes their appearance over time, until they feel comfortable with the other. This simple thing however, may in fact be just enough to make a BP start looking at the non-BP in a different light.

 

“My ex had terrible gas,” the BP may think, and then start looking for signs and other attributes that this non- has with their former partner. This new non-BP, who has only broke wind, has now become like the others.

 

Abandonment is also a strong fear of BP’s. Feelings of abandonment stretch outside the walls of a close coupled relationship, and may involve relationships shared among friends. These feelings of abandonment may stem to the root of the BP’s psychosis, or may have come as symptoms of the BPD. In the flatulent example aforementioned, the BP may have eventually gone far in assigning negative attributes to the non-; and the non- simply grew tired of this poor soul’s baggage and left. Whether the non- left on good terms or abruptly left the relationship makes no difference to the BP – they were for all intensive purposes, abandoned. The BP was abandoned because the non- just couldn’t take the c
hanges in personality. The non- had been drawn into the BP’s labyrinth, grew scared, and finally found the door behind them, and ran out.

 

The room is very dark and grows darker still. The BP searches for a way out.

 

The BP may become, or may have been long since suicidal. Their life is empty. Nobody sticks around. Not a single soul in the world for them no one to love or trust. Sadly, among 8-10% of BPs find suicide as their way out of this maddening maze (Wikipedia, 2007). Still more turn to other destructive behavior such as drug abuse, alcoholism, promiscuity, and so on, if they haven’t already (Harvard, June 2006). Thankfully, the majority searches for a light.

 

In the search for a way to light this dark room, the BP may actively search for friends. During this search, the BP will also be desperately searching for various ways to gain approval of the people around them. In the desperate acts of approval seeking, the BP may be viewed as child-like, constantly finding inappropriate times to interject, or add to a conversation, sharing experiences which may have no light on a particular subject, following people, consistent rambling, hyperactivity, and so on. Due to this behavior the BP may just drive the nons- away, thus fulfilling their fears of abandonment once again. A vicious cycle has come complete again, and starts once more.

 

BPs may find light, however, through therapy. Therapy, however, can become just as troubling as the disorder.

 

The Grand Hall, just down the corridor from the large darkened room. Even darker. Still no light. A large spiral staircase in the center. The staircase, more frightening, leads to the depths of the issue.

 

Somewhere along the way, the BP may have been diagnosed, or they may just realize that their symptoms deserve attention, so they seek therapy; where they shall become diagnosed as a person suffering from Borderline Personality Disorder, if not many more psychological disorders (Harvard, 2006). In either case the BP has most likely come to therapy, entered The Grand Hall, to receive help with the symptoms – the trust issues, the anxiety and depression. The counselor (inclusive of therapist, psychiatrist, and psychologist) leads them to the staircase – the disorder itself. This long dark and twisting shaft is lined with many steps, many symptoms. The hole that they lead down is the disorder, and the depth of the hole, the number of steps leading down, can only be influenced by how the BP thinks and chooses to interpret things. A scary walkway to look at for the BP, and the counselor. Truth be told, the counselors are typically more fearful of the treatment than the BP (Harvard, 2007).

 

Enter the minotaur – the stigma of this labyrinth known as Borderline Personality Disorder.

 

With all the knowledge that counselors have of BPD, they have the misfortune of having to expect anything and everything from the patient. The counselors know the definition of BPD; unsettling and unstable moods, rage, suicidal thoughts, self-injury, fears of abandonment, intimacy issues; over-all volatile behavior (Harvard, 2007). With this information, it’s hard to enter into a session without some slight. More difficult still, is the nature of the disorder. Personality disorders are just that – a problem entwined within a personality, the very being of a person. Defining a line between the being and the human is difficult, if not nearly impossible. The problem is magnified where the personality is that of a borderline nature, meaning it can change randomly at any given moment, as opposed to its akin; Bipolar, which changes on a more patterned cyclic rate (Wikipedia, 2007). [To continue with illustrative efforts, bipolar persons are more like funhouses. The journey may be scary and fun, and there is a definite end to the cycle before you re-enter.]

 

The stigma then plays into the BP’s psychosis; the counselor has failed the BP. There is no help or hope. Abandonment, yet again.

 

There have, however, been several good attempts at therapy, yet these styles of therapy do not show definitive solutions for the disorder. Therapy for the BP has been tried in one on one sessions, as well as in group sessions such as groups of BPs being counseled, or couples therapy for the BP and non-BP. Two forms of therapy have shown good response in BPD diagnosed patients. One therapy style, Schema-Focused Therapy (focuses on childhood, daily life, emotion and defining thereof), has shown full recovery of some patients after a four-year term, while having a larger number “showing clinically significant improvement.” Dialectical behavioral therapy (logic reasoning, weighing and exchanging points and ideas) has shown some use in an effort to stop suicidal and self-injury tendencies, and is more welcomed by BPs in opposition of traditional psychoanalysis; however dialectical has yet to prove any effectiveness in treatment of BPD. (Harvard, June 2006)

 

There are no medications for BPD itself; whereas a BP can be medicated for certain symptoms or a concurrent mental health diso
rder. Selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors (SSRI) have been used to aid in the improvement of anxiety and depression. Antipsychotics have also been tried in attempts to alleviate impulsivity and suicidal attempts. Anticonvulsants have been used as well, and have shown effects in stabilizing the mood of BPs. (Harvard, July 2006)

 

Borderline Personality Disorder is an enigma to everyone involved. A large puzzle without a solution. A maze without a map. A deep dark labyrinth. Though the single sufferer may never be completely cured (Harvard, July 2006), they may, however, through therapy and the determined support of trusting friends and partners, be able to make it through without having the house cave in on them.


References

American Psychiatric Association, (2004). Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders DSM-IV-TR (Text Revision). Washington, DC: American Psychiatric Publishing.

Borderline Personality Disorder. (2007). In Wikipedia [Web]. Retrieved July 6, 2007, from http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Borderline_personality_disorder

Danielewski, M (2000). House of Leaves. Toronto, Canada: Random House.

Harvard Health Publications, (2007, January).The stigma of borderline personality. Harvard Mental Health Letter. 6.

Harvard Health Publications, (2006, July).Borderline personality disorder: Treatment. Harvard Mental Health Letter. 3-5.

Harvard Health Publications, (2006, June).Borderline perosnality disorder: Origins and symptoms. Harvard Mental Health Letter. 22, 1-3.

Writer's Block: Bump In The Night

What are you afraid of?
Hmmm…. okay, so what am I afraid of?
I just recently discovered my fear of death. I knew that I was afraid of death all aong, but it took an experience this past weekend that actually clued me into it. It happened Friday night.
Where I had quit my job, things have been rather tight, financially. To earn some extra cash, Diana has been selling plasma, and had actually gotten me talked into it – it took a bit of work on her part – but that’s another story. At any rate, I had gone in on Friday night to sell plasma once more, and then it happened. The trigger to my realization that I am afraid to die.
Throughout the harvesting process, I was fine. It was when the blood cells were returned that things went bad. I lost most of my vision. I lost my hearing. I nearly went out. That was very scary.
I don’t think that I’ll do that ever again.

BPD – Extended Definition – draft…

A room. A large room. Not just any room – an expansive room, filled with the absence of light. The room is familiar, and yet, there is something very unsettling about it. The room change, shifts, reconstructs itself. All the basic elements are there – walls, doors, ceilings, floors – everything familiar and known is present. The room changes. The doorway that had been only a few feet from you has now somehow gone ten feet away, and leads to somewhere else. The room changes. The labyrinth grows. You are lost in the maze of darkness, and everything that you should know about the room proves incorrect, yet at other instances all logic prevails, and a bit of light may be shed and you find your way.

While the analogy above may sound more like a partial synopsis of The Navidson Record, it’s purpose is to serve as a definition of Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) – and what the sufferers [meaning the person having the symptoms and diagnosis of the mental syndrome (hereon referred to as the BP); as well as the persons within the life of the diagnosed (hereon referred to as the non-BP)] experience.

According the American Psychological Association’s Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders fourth edition (DSM-IV), Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) as a condition where a person’s mentality and emotions vary from the norm by showing instability in overall behavior, self-image, identity, mood, relationships, and the classification of things in terms “black and white”, or “right or wrong.” These aspects are further outlined in the criteria listed in the DSM-IV, and are offered as a guideline for possible diagnosis, where a person suffering from BPD will show five of the nine listed symptoms.

Commonly, the BP has issues with interpersonal relationships. This causes tremendous troubles for both the BP and the non-BP. The BP may exhibit a lack of trust in the non-BP, and show violent or irregular changes in attitude toward the non-Bp. Reasons for these trust and anger issues may vary, and typically will, for the issue lies deep within the BP’s previous life experiences. The Bp may have been a victim of some sort of abuse, be it emotional, physical, or sexual. These experiences then influence the attitude of the BP, and the feelings get applied toward the non-BP. This transgression is not done intentionally; meaning that the BP truly wishes to behave in this manner, however; the attitude is brought about as a defense mechanism. The BP has been put on edge – a high alert, and looks for any sign that they might be hurt once more.

The walls. The doors. The floors. Familiar elements of this room. But something is different, something changes, the room has gotten bigger. The doors are further away.

A BP can enter into a relationship, not expecting anything more than what any other person, may expect. Things may seem fine – normal. Then the BP will start looking for the signs. The non-BP may make the normal changes within their attitude, as everyone is susceptible to doing. This simple change may scare the BP, causing a sudden rift in their attitude, causing a change in the way they look at things, in turn causing a change in how the non-BP sees their friend/partner.

When people date, and get into a relationship, they typically show all of their good points, and get comfortable with one another before letting their lesser points slide in. One may be dating a person for a few weeks, going out to dinners and movies, and show full proper manners, and then eventually, on that nice comfortable night when the couple sits at home and watches TV, the one breaks wind – something that had been held in the past. While this example may be a bit stretched, it does show how one changes their appearance over time, until they feel comfortable with the other. Although we all pass gas several times throughout the day, we try to not let it be known. This simple thing however, may in fact be just enough to make a BP start looking at the non-BP in a different light.

My ex had terrible gas – the BP may think, and then start looking for the signs of other attributes that this non- has with their former partner. Their former may not have been a negative person at all, but they may have had attributes that they shared with another, and so on. Or during the former relationship, the previous non- could have been involved in heated arguments with the BP, eventually causing the deterioration of their relationship. And this new non-, who has only broke wind, has now become like the others.

Abandonment is also a strong fear of BP’s. This feeling of abandonment stretches outside the walls of a close coupled relationship, and involves relationships shared among friends. Feelings of abandonment may stem to the root of the BP’s psychosis, or may have come as a cause of the BPD. In the example aforementioned, the BP may have eventually gone far in assigning negative attributes to the non-; and the non- simply grew tired of this poor souls baggage, and left. Whether the non- left on good terms, being kind and courteous or abruptly left the relationship makes no difference to the BP – they were for all intensive purposes, abandoned. The BP was abandoned because the non- just couldn’t take the changes in personality. The non- had been drawn into the BP’s labyrinth, grown scared, and finally found the door behind them, and ran out.

Having a friend cancel a meeting is abandoning. In the mind of a BP, the friend has either found another friend that they like better, or just wants to run like everyone else in their life.

The room is very dark. The BP searches for a way out, or at the very least, a light.

The BP may become or may have been long since suicidal. Their life is empty. Nobody sticks around. Not a single soul in the world for them, no one to love or trust. Sadly, among 8-10% of Bps find suicide as their way out of this maddening maze. Still more turn to other destructive behavior such as drug abuse, alcoholism, promiscuity, and so on, if they haven’t already.

In the search for a way to light this dark room, the BP may actively search for friends. During this search, the BP will also be desperately searching for various ways to gain approval of the people around them. In the desperate acts of approval seeking, the BP may be viewed as child-like, constantly finding inappropriate times to interject, or add to a conversation, sharing experiences which may have no light on a particular subject, following people, consistent rambling, hyperactivity, and so on. And due to this behavior- the desire to be a part, the BP may just drive the nons- away, thus fulfilling their fears of abandonment once again. A vicious cycle has come complete again, and starts once more.

Bps may find light, however, through therapy. Therapy, however, can become just as troubling as the disorder.

The Grand Hall, just down the corridor from the large darkened room. Even darker. Still no light. A large spiral staircase in the center. The staircase, more frightening, leads to the depths of the issue.

Somewhere along the way, the BP may have been diagnosed, or they may just realize that their symptoms deserve attention, and they seek therapy, where they shall become diagnosed as a person suffering from Borderline Personality Disorder, and perhaps even more psychological disorders. At any rate the BP has most likely come to therapy, entered The Grand Hall, just to receive help with the symptoms – the trust issues, the anxiety and depression. The counselor [inclusive of therapist, psychiatrist, and psychologist] leads them to the staircase – the disorder itself. This long dark and twisting shaft is lined with the steps – the symptoms. The hole that they lead down is the disorder, and the depth of the hole, the number of steps leading down, can only be influenced by how the BP thinks, and interprets things. A scary walkway to look at for the BP, and the counselor. Truth be told, the counselors are typically more fearful of the treatment than the BP. Or, perhaps it may be said that the counsel
or is more fearful of the BPD than the person having to claim it.

Enter the minotaur – the stigma of this labyrinth known as Borderline Personality Disorder.

With all the knowledge that counselors have of BPD, they have the misfortune of having to expect anything and everything from the patient. The counselors know the definition of BPD – unsettling and unstable moods, rage, suicidal thoughts, self-injury, fears of abandonment, intimacy issues; over-all volatile behavior. With this information, it’s hard to enter into a session without some slight. More difficult still, is the nature of the disorder. Personality disorders are just that – a problem entwined within a personality, the very being of a person. Defining a line between the being and the human is difficult, if not nearly impossible; and the problem is magnified where the personality is BP, meaning it can change randomly at any given moment, as opposed to its akin – Bipolar, which changes on a more patterned cyclic rate. [To continue with illustrative efforts, bipolar persons are more like funhouses – the journey may be scary and fun, and there is a definite end to the cycle before you re-enter.]

The stigma then plays into the BP’s psychosis – the counselor has failed the BP. There is no hope for the BP. Abandonment, yet again.

There have, however, been several good attempts at therapy for the BP, yet, where aforementioned, these styles of therapy do not show definitive solutions to the disorder, where the science is still infantile. [Once again, the disorder being that of a personality issue plays heavily here.]

Therapy for the BP has been done in one on one sessions, and in group sessions. Two forms of therapy have shown good response in BPD diagnosed patients. One therapy style, Schema-Focused Therapy [focuses on childhood, daily life, emotion and defining thereof] has shown full recovery of some patients after a four-year term, while having a larger number “showing clinically significant improvement.” Dialectical behavioral therapy [logic reasoning, weighing and exchanging points and ideas] has shown some use in an effort to stop suicidal and self-injury tendencies, and is more welcomed by Bps in opposition of traditional psychoanalysis; but has yet to prove any effectiveness in treatment of BPD.

There are no medications for BPD itself, whereas a BP can be medicated for certain aspects, or a concurrent mental health disorder. Selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors (SSRI) have been used to aid in the improvement of anxiety and depression. Antipsychotics have also been tried in attempts to alleviate impulsivity and suicidal attempts. Anticonvulsants have been used as well, and have shown effects in stabilizing the mood of Bps.

Borderline Personality Disorder is an enigma to everyone involved. A large puzzle without a solution. A maze without a map. A deep dark labyrinth. The single sufferer may never be cured, however they may, through therapy, and determined trusting friends and partners be able to make it through, and survive, without having the house cave in on them.

Strokin' Survey

So, I was listening to my collection of mp3’s, and Strokin’ started playing. That gave me an idea… a survey based on the questions that Clarence asks us in the song… So, here we go…
———————————–
“Let me ask you somethin’…
What time of the day do you like to make love?”
>morning and evening,

“Have you ever made love just before breakfast?”
>yep…

“Have you ever made love while you watched the late, late show?”
>I think so…

“Well, let me ask you this
Have you ever made love on a couch?”
>yep…

“Well, let me ask you this
Have you ever made love on the back seat of a car?”
>no, but the front seat of my old truck…

“Let me ask you something…
How long has it been since you made love, huh?”
>um… two days, i think…

“Did you make love yesterday?”
>nope…

“Did you make love last week?”
>yep…

“Did you make love last year?”
>yep…

“Or maybe it might be that you plannin’ on makin’ love tonight…”
>i’d like to, but i don’t know if that’ll happen now…

and now, just for the fun of it, can you relate to either of these stories that Clarence shares with us…
———————————

“I remember one time I made love on the back seat of a car
And the police came and shined his light on me, and I said:
‘I’m strokin’, that’s what I’m doin’, I be strokin”
>sorry, never had anything like that happen…

“Now when I start making love to my woman
I don’t stop until I know she’s sas-ified
And I can always tell when she gets sas-ified
‘Cause when she gets sas-fied she start calling my name
She’d say: ‘Clarence Carter, Clarence Carter, Clarence Carter
Clarence Carter, ooooh shit, Clarence Carter'”
>um, I think I’ve only had my name called twice, and those would be the only time that i know she was “sas-ified”…

“The other night I was strokin’ my woman
And it got so good to her, you know what she told me
Let me tell you what she told me, she said:
‘Stroke it Clarence Carter, but don’t stroke so fast
If my stuff ain’t tight enough, you can stick it up my…’ WOO! ”
>um, no she’s never told me that…

and now, we finish with some good words of advise:
—————————–

“But just remember, when you start making love
You make it hard, long, soft, short
And be strokin’ “

enjoy this survey, and please share it!
thanks,
jp

…

…does it ever seem like everything in the world is getting worse? That everything that you know is wrong, or that there is just something more that you never knew about? Does it seem like everyone is just getting a little bit crazier?

I don’t know…

…it just seems that things are getting worse everywhere…

midnight blogging…

ah… hitting poles in parking lots is contagious! someone just hit a pole at wally-world…
i think i may have that drive i was talking about last-night working right… after i finished the formats, the thing started freaking out… i swapped a cable and changed a pin-setting… so far so good…
just got off the phone with rob… he’s havin’ fun… the alarm got set off out at aaron’s, apparently by a firecracker or something, and he had to go in to reset the alarm… not only that, but he told me that he has to be in bright and early in the morning, and it’ll only be him and one other guy… one delivery driver is out on medical leave, the other is attending a funeral, one of the sales girls is out on vacation, and the other quit a couple weeks ago…
fun, fun, fun…
well, i’d better get to bed… i got semi-chewed out last night/this (past – i guess since it’s now a new day – it’s after midnight) morning for not coming to bed until midnight…
the HDD is still going good… I guess if things go right for the next few days I’ll archive some files on it – my primary HDD is nearly full…
’twas nice talkin’ to rob… reminiscent of the old days… i miss those days, of stayin’ up late, not doin’ much of anything…

high school survey

High School Survey

1) Where did you graduate from and what year?
Harrison County – 1999

2) Did you have school pride?
nope…

3) Was your Prom a night to remember?
not really…

4) What was your fav. song you danced to the night of PROM?
I can’t remember, and the only reason I danced was because a couple of girls begged me to…

5) Do you own all 4 Yearbooks?
nope… just the senior year, and I don’t know where it is…

6) Do you remember the first CD you ever bought?
Violent Femmes – Viva Wisconsin

7) What was your fav. movie in Highschool?
A Goofy Movie… I envied Max…

8) What was your number 1 choice of College in HS?
I didn’t have a choice… I wanted to take one year off before going to college… probably a mistake…

9) What radio station did you jam out to in highschool?
98.1/100.1 WKQQ until 106.3 came around…

10) Were you involved in any organizations or clubs?
I was a member of the KY 51st AFJROTC

11) What was your fav class in Highschool?
Astronomy… the subject was nice, but I took the class to experience that teacher’s methods… Mr. Hiles was a great teacher…

12) Who was your big crush in Highschool?
I really don’t want to go there…

13) Would you say you’ve changed a lot since highschool?
I’ve grown a bit more cynical…

14) What do you miss the most about it?
nothing, really…

15) Your worst memory of HS?
See question twelve…

16) Did you have a car?
nope, but mom let me borrow hers…

17) What were your school colors?
maroon and white…

18) Who was your fav. teacher?
Mr. Hiles…

19) Did you own a cell phone in highschool?
nope…

20) Did you leave campus for lunch?
a couple of times…

21) if so, where was your fav. place to go eat?
I think we went to McDonald’s…

22) Were you always late to class?
nope…

23) Did you ever have to stay for Sat. School? (or detention)
yep…

24) Did you ever ditch?
a couple of times…

25) When it comes time for the reunion will you be there?
probably not…