Tag: unfinished_thoughts

So, I may have discovered something very startling… a trend… how our finances and moods correlate…
What’s scarier is that one trend I might have found is that when our expenses are at the lowest points, and our income is high, are the points where I have gotten Diana to calm down, and we have cut items… That also, if I am looking at the dates correctly, is when Diana starts liking me less…
This does prove that she is a materialistic person… Sure, she may not need physical pocessions, but she needs stuff…
I would really like to check this graph against all of my blog entries (past ones shall be difficult to locate) and see if I have written anything on our general temperaments at during those frames of time…
I did see one thing which I feel shows a correlation… During the time frame where she was feeling less loved and less appreciated, our income grew, as our expenses dropped… Obviously this is drastically changed when I left work to be with her… We spent a lot more, and had not a penny to our names… And oddly, she was happier…
Of course, when I think about it, it has been this way for quite some time, even back when we were starting out…
At any rate… Dates which I need to search are…
June – August 2005
December 2005
Feb – March 2006
May 2006
August 2006
Feb – May 2007
June-August 2005 – okay, there was some fighting, Diana wasn’t too happy. I cannot remember it being that bad… she was arguing about us not having things she wanted… like a cell phone, cable, and so on… then i got hired on full-time at concpet, and we got those things…. i remember that during this time frame, i was hoping that i’d get hired on so that i could either have money to give her, or money that i could use to run away… obviously i never ran away….
there is an increase in dining out during this time frame…
december 05 – there was increased spending – expected – holidays
feb-march 2006 – decrease in spending, odd considering a new baby was born… there was a tax deposit early feb, which accounts relative decrease in spending, but i do recall some more fighting here… diana had been threatening to leave again, if she didn’t get what she needed – note the increased cable bill… there must have been a little more fighting as well, note the appearance of liquor…
may 2006 – i cannot explain by looking at the financial statements… there is an increase in cell phone bill, and then auto repairs… i do not see why there is a lesser expense… but there is, despite an increase in dining out, and the aforementioned vehicle maintenance…
August 2005 – this is where diana and i point back to something happening, but neither of us can figure out what… we were at blows here… why, neither of us really know… we both claim that the one was not appreciating the other… it was shortly after this that i believed things were getting better, and diana claims that they weren’t… expenses increase due to van and approaching holiday season…
Feb – may 2007 – we all know this… during this time frame there was also a drop in expenses, due in part to diana’s short-lived employment… my income fluctuated a hell of a lot… so there was no gain there… i do see less purchases… i am not comprehending what exactly happened there financially… our balance was relatively low… but we were perfect on spending – until mid april, when you know what happened…
so, i dunno…
i need to look at the blogs… see if i can find more… maybe i can find a cycle to everything….

When I was in high school, I had an idea of what I wanted to do, who I wanted to be. I didn’t know fully, so I decided not to bother with going to college, and to take some time, to figure things out. Two years later, my thoughts became clearer. Two years after that, I knew full-well what I wanted to do with my life.
Now, I’m not so sure…
“Dreamer, you stupid little dreamer,”
I discovered that I had an interest in computers sometime in the late ’90s. My dad had gotten a job at an office, and ended up bringing home a computer. Well, the one work computer soon led to several coming through the door, and the two of us started studying what we could, when we could. He’d bring home various parts and junked PCs, and we’d tear them down and rebuild.
In 2001, I became employed by a local consumer-electronics dealer. It was here that I discovered that the public is moronic, needs help, and that there isn’t anyone around this town that can truly offer that kind of help – not even at the local dealer of products from “America’s technology store.”
It was here that I started to dream of becoming an entrepreneur. 
In 2003, my father gained a heightened interest in radio communications. He has always had an interest – it just grew. He started working with the communications systems of the county’s emergency services. I started to help, in small doses, as just an alternate set of eyes when trying to figure out how to use an unfamiliar piece of programming software. His collection of equipment grew, and so had the word that he could program certain radios.
I came to the realization that the two of us should join forces and start a business. I’ve drempt of this for four years now. And nothing has happened.