Half a million thoughts running around in my head, and I don’t like a single one of them.
That number is an exaggeration, of course, and I’m sure there’s got to be a thought or two that I don’t mind, and others I could put a spin on and have turn out right. But right now, there’s a couple that are bothering me in a negative way. The first being that I didn’t sleep well. Very stupid; very simple. Ashlee went to bed clothed, and I never got a chance to feel her naked body against mine. Stupid. Very stupid. But I guess I desperately needed to feel that closeness.
My other big negative thought is my dealing with neighbors. One of them came bitching about our stupid dog and her barking. So, I built a fence across the backyard. I wasn’t prepared to build a fence; I’d had a certain styling and materials in mind, which would’ve required a nice chunk of money and time that we don’t have. So, I erected a fence that I really don’t like. Having given the dog more freedom, she’s slightly quieter, but she’s still going to be a nuisance. So, now I’ve spent money I don’t have and ruined the aesthetics of my yard in order to appease a neighbor that can’t hear their TV over the barking of my dog.
I was planning on spending time mowing the yard, fixing Ashlee’s car, and then finding something to do as a family yesterday. Instead I spent my time throwing together a fence, watching/hearing Ashlee suffer getting started on her car, and then I switched over to finishing up her car once I got to a good enough stopping point on the fence.
And, of course, now there’s more on my plate, because I need to finish up the fence and try to make it something I like, and give it some better functionality. I need to add a few more posts, dress it with planks at the posts (because t-posts are ugly), add a top rail (because, aesthetics), hang a walk through gate and finally build & hang a drive through gate.
And I want to try and figure out how to accomplish all this before the coming weekend, and mow the yard.
I fucking hate people.